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Bipolar Cancer Husband No. 2
I must confess that I still feel a little selfish when I remind people that I am under stress — perhaps more stress than Lynn.
Posted: June 26th, 2012 under Anxiety, Cancer Diary, Cats, Dogs, Uncertainty.
Comments: 3
Relentless Self-Examination & the Loss of Genuineness
When they happen, I am a slave not to society, but to an odd sense of self.
Posted: April 20th, 2011 under Bipolar Disorder, OCD, Reflections, Spirituality and Being, Uncertainty.
Comments: 1
Tired Pity
Every day, nearly, I meet a disturbed person, either online, in a support group, or, rarely, out in the world. The easiest, for me, are the hurt and disappointed by love: in their desperation the good in me can reach out and encourage them to pay no attention to the absence of affection in their [...]
Posted: April 7th, 2010 under Bipolar Disorder, Morals & Ethics, Sorrow & Regret, Uncertainty.
Comments: none
The World Turned Right Side Up
At the British surrender at Yorktown, the band played “The World Turned Upside Down”. Then as now a transfer of power took place. Certainly among the Americans — many of whom had been fighting for years — there must have been a difficult period: how do you go from being a warrior to a citizen? [...]
Posted: October 23rd, 2008 under Anxiety, Campaign 2008, Depression, Uncertainty.
Comments: 3
Compliance and Complaint
A brief article at John Gale’s Mental Health Update notes that older psychiatric patients are more likely to take their meds than younger ones: A study of 32,991 people in the U.S. compared adherence to antipsychotic medication in older (over 60) and younger patients with bipolar disorder. The researchers found that among the older group [...]
Posted: October 17th, 2007 under Psychotropics, Uncertainty.
Comments: 1
Therapy
Anyone else come out of a therapy session feeling that because something was nobody’s fault it’s all your fault?
Posted: September 17th, 2007 under Anxiety, Uncertainty.
Comments: 3
These Worst of Deadening Times
9/11 begins with the personal — and especially with the direct human loss of individual lives — and expands outward from there to the broader ramifications for the world and its geopolitical landscape. In the centre of that meaning, at the personal end of the spectrum, I find feelings about loss (of loved ones), about [...]
Posted: September 12th, 2007 under Festivals, Terrorism, Uncertainty.
Comments: 5
Sweet Maryjane is a Bitch
The news that marijuana increases the risk of psychosis does not surprise me. I believe that my first episode was ignited by the coals that burned in the bowl of a bong, coupled with a few sadists who used my altered state as an opportunity to brainwash me into a neat little paranoia. In those [...]
Posted: August 7th, 2007 under Addictions, Bipolar Disorder, College, Uncertainty.
Comments: 2
The White Dunes
I would give my life to have a life again
Posted: June 20th, 2007 under Bipolar Disorder, PTSD, Uncertainty.
Comments: 4
Ogres and Monsters
So Maggs wants to know how I am…. The hero’s journey, we are told by Joseph Campbell and others, involves a place where one encounters monsters. By monsters, I mean creatures which do not eat the person. I’d love to meet some monsters in my life, but all I run into on this line are [...]
Posted: June 7th, 2007 under Myths & Mysticism, Reflections, Uncertainty.
Comments: 4
Which Variety of Sloth?
The pill containers lay open. I heated a muffin in the microwave and thought that it would take ages for me to lay out the morning medications — two Effexor and a Cardizem. A hard prod from the forepart of my brain made me get the pill bottles and lay out the capsules — blue [...]
Posted: May 27th, 2007 under Bipolar Disorder, Uncertainty.
Comments: none
Why the Silence
Happy are those who get the metaphor.
Posted: May 15th, 2007 under Daily Life, Uncertainty.
Comments: 3