The black spiral literally knocked me off my feet. I decided on my own to stop taking Geodon — a horrible drug that left me dizzy for all but the last three to four hours of my waking day — and I crashed and crashed hard. My bedroom was my habitation; my cats my constant […]
What could they have said to a raging bullshit artist?
Let this be written for those who come after and those who live now so that they may understand.
You are dealing with an irrational disease not a philosophical system.
Had these two impulsive acts of mine been due to the hypomania in which I slipped in and out? Perhaps. If they were, they mark times when my mania actually worked for me.
I realized my cause was so hopeless that not even St. Jude could fix it even if I visited a church in his name every day for a hundred years.
Flickr has a group called “Bipolar Photographers” of which I am a proud and prolific member. The other day, I tweeted the name and the url of the group. Another person reteeted my announcement but “corrected” it: “Photographers Living with Bipolar Disorder”. Two weeks before, I was at a Mental Health First Aid group. One […]
Was Lubitz an evil genius? I take exception to the conclusion that his actions were in any way “malicious”.
The fact is we are painters in real life, and the important thing is to breathe as hard as ever we can breathe. — Vincent Van Gogh
*TRIGGER WARNING* I must tell the truth here: I do not understand what Andreas Lubitz did. In my suicidal fugues, I thought of many ways that I might kill myself that involved others such as throwing myself in front of a truck or crashing my car into a tree or driving it off a cliff, […]
I live with bipolar disorder and one of my symptoms is grandiosity.
We can move souls to greater understanding and action by telling people what it is like to live among paranoid normal people. No family member possesses this experience.