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Why I Left the abUSEnet: A Bipolar Journey Through the Madness of Crowds

Posted on April 7, 2015 in Agitation Anxiety Hatred Humiliation Mania Mean People USEnet

I realized my cause was so hopeless that not even St. Jude could fix it even if I visited a church in his name every day for a hundred years.

On Crippling Self-Indictment

Posted on March 3, 2015 in Anger Anxiety Avoidance Frustration Mean People

I am thrall to this stupid, American insistence on balance, on not taking sides.

Questioning the Whirlwind

Posted on December 1, 2013 in Anxiety Bipolar Disorder Frustration

I constantly question the whirlwind. There must be an answer. And that takes over the mind.



Posted on November 9, 2013 in Anxiety Bipolar Disorder Frustration PTSD

The mind is not only its own place, but its own population.


Typing Errors

Posted on September 3, 2013 in Anxiety Attitudes Bipolar Disorder Fear Reflections

Mistakes like this cause me to enter a highly vigilant state of mind.


Bipolar Cancer Husband No. 2

Posted on June 26, 2012 in Anxiety Cancer Diary Cats Dogs Uncertainty

I must confess that I still feel a little selfish when I remind people that I am under stress — perhaps more stress than Lynn.


Bipolar Cancer Husband No. 1

Posted on June 14, 2012 in Anxiety Cancer Diary

I’ve been trying to write this story for months, but the time and the motivation have not been there. Two things tipped me off that something was wrong. First, I looked at my cell phone and realized that too much time had passed. Dr. Rettenmaier had promised a quick surgery — twenty five minutes — […]


Whines of 2012 — Updated 12/17/2012

Posted on April 24, 2012 in Anxiety Dentition Dogs Health OCD Spirituality and Being Whines

UPDATED: 9 September 2012 Let me count the ways the events of the past few months have screwed me. Note that there may will be additions as the weeks pass…so keep checking this article. It will be a mega-whine! First, my mother dies of a glioblastoma — brain cancer — the same disease that killed […]


Cancer Threat

Posted on March 3, 2012 in Anxiety Health Whines

The Universe appears to have taken on the role of the Mafia in my life. Instead of striking me directly, it has gone after the one I love.


Bemusement Parks and Drama Queens

Posted on July 11, 2011 in Anxiety Micro-blogging Reflections

Twitter has been delivering me to a state not unlike a dead whale on the beach, roasting in the sun. This is my own fault. I “have” to keep checking it to see what the news is. Then I get into arguments about just what the role of the president of the United States is […]


Notes on the 2011 DBSA National Conference Part 1

Posted on May 25, 2011 in Addictions Anxiety Bipolar Disorder DBSA Confs Stigma Sugar and Fat Travel - Conferences

The first big secret divulged to me and a select group of others was that the rumor that Peter Ashenden had been fired by [[Depression_and_Bipolar_Support_Alliance|DBSA]] after embezzling most of its assets1 was not true.2 DBSA had worked itself into the red due to optimistic budgeting based on the assumption that the pharmaceuticals industry would continue […]


Mindful Moment

Posted on April 18, 2011 in Anxiety Imagination

Hands open, palms upward as I call the paradise within to mind. Oh that it were tangible, real!

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